Wednesday, 3 December 2008

Lesser symptoms

Asperger's Syndrome (AS) has some quite fundamental affects on your life and some heavy bananas symptoms, but there are some lesser symptoms too. As I keep stressing, with AS not everyone will have these symptoms and others may have lesser symptoms that I don't have. However here are a few I haven't really covered before and don't really warrant their own individual postings.

A strange gait - I've kinda grown out of this a little, but when I was younger I had a very strange way of walking. I'd bounce up and down as I walked and it's another one of those symptoms that are visible to other people. As I've grown up I don't think I walk as bad, but I still walk funny. I hate catching a view of myself in a shop widow cos it reminds me how awkward I look.

Facial tics - again something visual, and something I've all but grown out of. I used to screw my face up either randomly or when stressed in some way. This tic was like a compulsion, and unless you've have a compulsion it's a hard thing to understand. It's like I just had to do it. When I knew I wanted to do it and focused so that I didn't, the more I'd focus the stronger the urge until I had to give in. I now do this sometimes, slightly, when exercising still but that's it.

Awful handwriting - my English teacher told me I have the writing of someone who hates to write. My handwriting has always been bad, so bad even I can't read it. Alas that has carried forward until today. I'm lucky in that I hardly ever have to write as I use computers all the time, and communicate via e-mail…and now that "chip 'n' pin" is here I hardly ever put pen to paper. I do have to take notes at meetings at work though and when I look back a few days later they might as well have been written by a chimp.

The strange thing about these lesser symptoms is that they are all noticeable by other people. Maybe the combination of all three (or four if you count the eye-contact issue) could be a way of possibly identifying people with AS just by observation alone? Maybe I have subconsciously worked at eliminating these as I've gotten older as a way of masking my autism?


Jennifer said...

Very interesting. My 14 yr old daughter has Aspergers, and I was just looking around for other bloggers with this in common and found yours. It's really cool to read the viewpoint of an adult with Aspergers themselves.

AS-4-L said...

Hi Jennifer, glad you found it interesting. Hope you also don't find it too depressing either :) I'm trying to not dress things up either way, just tell them "as is".

The important thing to remember is that no two people with AS live the same life, we all live different lives the exact same way NTs do. Some are happier, some are sadder, some are richer, some are poorer. So don't let anyone tell you that because your daughter has AS she will definitely have certain issues, or problems or life experiences.

Beastinblack said...

I always have and still do screw my face up, to the point where my face muscles get cramp!